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I Found the Fountain of Youth

fountain of youth

I guess it may sound like a fairy tale to most people, that there could be a fountain of youth. But that is because they, whomever they are, have been looking for it in the outer world, when in reality it has been on the inside this entire time. Yes, since the beginning of time we have had access to it and I just now figured it out for myself. Actually, I have always been in touch with my inner child. I would be the adult that would be outside playing hop scotch and kick ball with all my nieces and nephews. At the time, I really didn’t give it much thought, I was just having fun. Oh yes, other adults thought I was silly, but who cares what they think, right? I also really love dancing. I’ll be the first one on the dance floor even if I don’t have a partner. I just go off into my own little world and do what I love. And I sing loudly even if it doesn’t sound good to others, because it’s joyous to me. Haven’t you ever watched a little kid when they’re at the grocery store with their mom? They just sing and dance and enjoy themselves. They aren’t worried about who’s watching, they’re just having fun. They have the key. I guess what I am trying to get across to you is that even though we age on the outside and we will for sure die someday, which I believe is a myth because we are all energy and we just transition to another dimension, we still have the choice to be young on the inside. I still feel like I’m in my twenties and I am way past that humanly. I think I just made that word up, but I like it so, it stays. I see people that are humanly younger than me but have maybe half the energy and spunk that I do. Yes for a while there I fell into the belief that you should act your age, but after my husband transitioned and I found myself single again I decided to do all the things I have been wanting to do and just never did.

So now I’m doing all sorts of fun things, like stand-up comedy for instance. I really don’t care if I make a career out of it, I do it for the fun. And I also go to clubs where I dance and play and make lots of new friends. Oh, I tried karaoke once but it wasn’t my thing. But at least I tried. I may do it again someday but it really doesn’t matter. Life is too short to take anything too seriously. You’ve heard the saying, “Don’t sweat the small stuff, and it’s all small stuff.” If you really, really, really think about it, that is the truest statement you can ever hear. What does worry accomplish anyway? It gives you wrinkles and gray hair. It causes ulcers and other illnesses, and shortens lives because stress is the silent killer. So just knowing that, doesn’t it make to want you kick your shoes off and yell, I’m free, I’m free and I’ll never be caged again? Well once you get past the point of guilt for not conforming to anyone else’s rules, and the worry and stress that has been bogging you down, you will feel free. And that’s when the inner child inside you will lead you to do anything and everything you want to do. Did you get that? I said everything you WANT to do. Want, want, want! Stop having to do anything. Stop using the word have. Sure there are things we do out of responsibility like paying the bills and feeding the kids, but those things can be done joyously too. Slow down and give yourself permission to be happy.

Have you ever heard the saying “The hurrier I go, the behinder I get”? Well, it is a saying and it is true. When you are rushing around and getting all twirled up in day to day tasks, you end up getting nowhere. But when you do things with an attitude of ease things flow and you can accomplish more than you thought you could. But, so what if you don’t accomplish anything? You’ve got to stop punishing yourself for leaving dishes in the sink or because you didn’t make your bed. Those things will still be there when you are ready to do them. Stop being so ridged and flow more often. Stop being so profoundly human, which to me means stiff and boring. Be more spiritual, which to me means free and fun. Life is supposed to be joyous so say. “Yes” more often. Yes, I will go to the movies on a weeknight, yes, I will take a weekend cruise, and yes, I will act silly even if others around me scoff. Be who you WANT to be. There is no judge in the sky tallying up all your Brownie points. You will not make marks on some sort of chart that will get you a good seat in heaven. “Now”, is what counts. Wouldn’t it be a shame if you got really old and then looked back and asked yourself, “Why didn’t I do that or I should have done this”? Yes, it would be.

Now I ask you, what is wrong with being nice to yourself? You want others to be nice to you, right? You need to sooth yourself into happiness. Take the time to get your nails done “guilt free”, or take a bubble bath in the middle of the day “just because”. Heck, take a nap if it feels good. Treat yourself like your own best friend. Love yourself like you do your lover. You do deserve these things and you need to see yourself as the worthy being that you truly are. You are not just a human being but a spiritual being as well. When you finally decide, and yes it is a choice, to be nice to yourself, then everything else will just fall into place. I mean everything, money, lovers, and that great vacation you’ve always wanted to take. All these things are available to us all the time but we get too bound up in “Reality” to see it. Stop being so reality oriented and dream more often. Believe that anything is possible and it will be for you. Slow down and meditate more, or pet your cat more often, or take a walk in a beautiful garden. See through your spiritual eyes and know that all is well. I know that deep down you know that you are always taken care of. I know you can think back to a time when you needed something like money for something and when you finally gave up looking for it because that was the only thing left to do, the money miraculously came. Tell me you never felt that. Well that is how it is all the time when you finally give up the struggle and let life live you. Follow the prompts like you would on a video game. Look for the signs that are always being revealed to you, be aware, be awake to the life you want and deserve. Be so in love with yourself that none of the outside bullshit can get to you. It will just roll off your back or go around you like you have a protective shield over you. Life is supposed to be fun and it would be a shame if you let it get away. Be happy in your NOW, because now is all we have. Wherever you are is okay. It’s just the launching point to the next now and the next one. And when you don’t get carried away with the what-ifs you will be much happier.

So how do you get to the fountain of youth? You slow down, you take it easy, and relax more, and pet your cat more, and take more walks and take more naps. Be nicer to yourself and love yourself and everything and everyone unconditionally. Be satisfied with where you are now and be eager for more. Let your inner child out more often.

So now you know the secret to the fountain of youth. It’s there if you choose to see and apply it. The ball is in your court. So what are you going to do NOW?

Remember there is great love here for you.

Always, your friend,

Deb Mertan


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